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My first 30 plus years of life was spent fearful, depressed and a constant struggle. There would always seem to be someone or something that I would allow to get me whipped into a frenzy. I was raised that way, in constant survival mode. I followed through with what I was taught, life sucks, you can’t get what you want, if you do get anything it will be a struggle, like constantly climbing mountains. It was an exhausting way to live. My chronic fatigue by the time I was in my thirties was proof of that. It’s like being a solar battery that needs to be constantly recharged. I just couldn’t control it all, this thing called life, Lord knows I tried. The depression and sadness killed my mother at the age of 57, and I lost my cookies……all of them!!!! Her life was spent the way I was living mine and for her death was a gift, the struggle was over. She spent her whole life wanting her mother to love her. My mother died taking care of the mother that never showed her love.
We are not taught how to deal, we are not taught how to be happy, we are not taught why the hell we are here……. Oh yes, there are religions, that will be more than happy to take your money and tell you how you need to be saved, over and over and over again. You know the bullshit of ‘original sin’? So from the beginning you are not worthy, from the beginning you are taught to fit inside the box, be the sheep, follow the rich guy. Which is probably the same guy asking for your money.
Think of what you could accomplish if you were taught who you really are. You are a Spiritual Being in a physical body, you chose to be here. You chose this shitty experience for yourself. Your life really is all about you. You came here to learn and just when you think you have mastered the lesson, here comes another thing you need to ‘get and master’…..”Life is all about choice. You choose your life, your family, your friends, your difficulties, your opportunities. What you do with them is your choice. Suffer, flourish, succumb or overcome, it’s all up to you. You are not at the mercy of any power or person.” 8 Keys: A Special Delivery Message from the Angels. Whatever you believe about your life is your truth. If you know life sucks, you are right…..if you know you are an unlimited spiritual being, you are right. It just doesn’t get much simpler than that. What you know to be true is created in your life each day.
After my mom passed I went into a severe depression. I have been blessed in my life, when I saw myself spiraling down into the pit of despair, I made a choice. The Angels spoke to me saying, “do not live your life the way your mother did’, that sounded reasonable to me…….I choose to move into love. The whole story is in my book, 8 Keys. The story is not complicated. If I needed help I asked, just put it ‘out there’ and answers always came back. Bit by bit, piece by piece, the empty spots in my soul got filled. It seems almost impossible that one person can hold such pain for years and years, including all those past life traumas that needed to be cleared. Then, the struggle with ego, sometimes as I look back I wonder how any one of us survive it. It is not complicated but it is taking a good long look at yourself. All the good, bad, and the ugly and find love anyway. The fact that you as a human can do this is amazing. Often I can feel the love my mother sends or she will show up in my dreams, always sending love. Most recently I was told by a psychic friend, that my mother was thanking me for doing the work healing my energy, because it has healed the energy all the way back, including hers and others down the line. Now I know why it was so important, now I understand so much more. Everything is energy, energy cannot be destroyed, even after death the energy of your loved one is out there. My mother passed December 1st, 1990. You are forever in my heart. Next time we come back lets spend more happy time together!!
My second 30 plus years has been learning to allow life to be filled with love, joy, peace, prosperity and health…….And perfect divine self expression. I believe I have mastered it. Things still show up, fear from ego still raises it’s head, but love is more powerful than any negativity, it’s just another lesson to learn. I have forgiven those in this life’s journey, including myself and I live my life as the Goddess, I AM!
‘Everyone is about as happy as they make up their mind to be.’
I grew up in the sixties, yes, that makes me an official senior citizen. My generation at the time was experiencing the Vietnam War. It was also a time of civil rights protests and chaos against the way things were. I remember watching the news, from the trusted news anchor, Walter Cronkite and or Dan Rather. Due to certain laws the news had to be what was actually happening out there in the world without the right or left wing spin. Sometimes Walter would give an opinion and everyone listened because he was well respected. Who knows if someone was in their living room screaming at the TV about what an asshole Walter was. I’m sure then there was enough hate to go around. If you were black in America, you were most likely the target of that hate. I didn’t realize the impact of that hate and the effect it had on people of color. I grew up in a suburb of Cleveland, Ohio with ‘white privilege’. I’m sure that statement will piss someone off, but it’s true. I was not aware of how much of a struggle we, as people in the United States were having at the time. I was just trying to survive my dysfunctional abusive childhood, with the chaos of the world going on around me. When I went to church with my best friend, I was hoping to see the good in people. After all they had ‘God’, they must be very special and I became special too by being ‘saved’. I confessed my sins and you know, really, how many sins can 13 yr old have. So I was not sure what I was confessing, so it was more like confessing I was a useless sinful human. But, I wanted to be good, so I did what I was told and tried to live by the rules of ‘God’.
I have this amazing life, a life of empowerment, a life filled with love, I’m in gratitude everyday at my many blessings. I manifested this life and the Universe responded. That’s a bit different than my childhood. However the world seems to have learned nothing in the last 40 to 50 yrs. The chaos is still around me and I am still aware that being white is respected more in this world, than not, but being a woman, can also suck at times. What the hell!!!! It seems you, as a group of people, are more angry than ever. You hate like never before……and instead of trying to fix things by lifting up our sisters and brothers, you would rather make fun and hurt anyone that would have the nerve to prove you to be as stupid as you are. Seriously, who ruins their own home for money, but you are okay with letting the planet go to waste. Which of you out there would rather have your food coated with cancer causing pesticides, yum, lets have dinner, ‘a little more Round-up please’. It is shocking to me how single minded you can be. Yet, because of all that or in spite of that you are miserable, sick, depressed, tired and it must be the brown or black guys fault. Human, you are missing out…….
I left church because of the issue of control and judgement. They wanted to control me and judgement was everywhere…..I’m not sure what happened to ‘Love thy neighbor as thyself!’ I didn’t feel the love, the god they talked about was an egotistical asshole and some father figure we should obey. So, that seemed stupid and I left. Over the years the religions seem to have gotten more egotistical and judgmental. They seem to hate LGBTQ, abortions, but do not care about babies being put in cages and separated from their family, this stuff gets made up as they go along. There’s hate for tatoos, yoga pants and other ridiculous stuff, like men should have control over women. How stupid is that. The list is worse than my free spirit can comprehend. You all seem to want more than ever to be the ‘follower’, desperate to be the one included. To me, it looks like you are afraid to make your own decisions, you are afraid to take responsibility for you own lives, as if it’s so much easier for you to give your power away and of course, your money……
I am sorry, who have you been listening to because it is not your own intuition?
So here’s what’s happening……Greta Thunberg, has invaded the United States, to speak at the UN about climate change. There are people angry at her and calling her names. Adult people calling a 16 yr old girl, who has Asperger Syndrome,( look it up) ‘a mentally ill Swedish child’. She is not mentally ill. The adults are criticizing her for speaking up. You should all be ashamed of yourselves, go home and stand in the corner till you grow up……geez!
Autumn Peltier, a 13-year-old Anishinaabe girl from Wikwemikong First Nation, addresses world leaders at the United Nations about protecting water. How many of you would like to give all your water to corporations so they can sell it back to you. How many of you wish your water was polluted……hello, the moron in the White House is letting our waterways and lakes be a dumping ground for waste. And don’t even get me started on Flint, Michigan, whose children are being poisoned by their water. Oh but, that’s okay, they are those people of color…….seriously…….what has happened to us.
“In 2015, Florida surfers Andrew Cooper and Alex Schulze embarked on a post-college trip to Bali in search of big waves. What they found were beaches buried in garbage. But the friends also came home with a big idea for a multimillion-dollar business to help clean the world’s oceans.
A pollution solution Cooper, 28, and Schulze, 27, first met as college students at Florida Atlantic University, where they both studied business and graduated in 2014. The following year, the two friends set off for a three-week surfing trip to Bali, Indonesia — an island in the Indian Ocean that’s a mecca for the sport.
In addition to being popular with tourists, Indonesia is also second only to China among the world’s biggest polluters. When Cooper and Schulze arrived, they were immediately struck by the massive pollution that chokes Bali’s beaches with trash that washes up from the ocean.” Pretty much right when we got [to the beach] the first thing we saw was an overwhelming amount of plastic,” Cooper tells CNBC Make It. It was a vista strewn with everything from plastic bottles and bags to used food containers and other refuse.”
In a nut shell, 2 friends didn’t like the pollution in the ocean so they formed a company to clean it up. They are actively removing trash from the ocean. Check it out and don’t forget to find something to get angry about…….
In spite of all the chaos going on in our world there is a lot of good. If you are the one sitting around complaining about people who want to clean the ocean….or 16 yr old that wants to save the planet…..or a 13 yr old that wants good water……if this makes you angry, it is no longer about them, it’s about you. You have consciously chosen to be an asshole and be unhappy. Changes will happen in this world because love is stronger than your low frequency negative energy. So sit around and whine, it’s your life. “A negative mind will seize any excuse to find fault.” Alan Cohen
But for me and mine we will choose happiness, which creates love, joy, peace and that manifests in the physical world as health and prosperity!
Good luck, Human, the power for change lies within you.
“I don’t need you to worry for me ’cause I’m alright
I don’t want you to tell me it’s time to come home
I don’t care what you say anymore this is my life
Go ahead with your own life leave me alone
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
I still belong
Don’t get me wrong
And you can speak your mind
But not on my time………”
It really feels like the energy is moving faster and faster, pushing us forward whether we want to move ahead or not. The last 3 months have put in front of my face things I thought I had dealt with years ago. All kinds of fear issues, sadness, depression, being played out because of decisions and circumstances I had to suddenly deal with. One thing after another pushing my buttons. Now, there was a time when depression and fear was how I lived everyday, but that was a long time ago. To find myself in this situation was certainly interesting. At the same time my physical body was healing at a very deep level. I talked somewhat about this in Oct 2018 blog. The higher in frequency you go, the more the body needs to release old physical ailments that may have been dormant for years. Okay, I can deal with that, I am OCD about my health. But what I got real clear on is emotional issues connected to the physical issues are being released also. I understand how that works I have a masters degree in Metaphysics, I just thought I had cleared all that stuff, but evidently only till the right buttons got pushed and the deepest levels opened. Holy smokes…..so I did what I tell my clients to do, release the energy of fear and sadness to the angels and confirm my status as Goddess, who deserves all my good. Pretty simple right! Yes, but the energy just kept coming in waves, I can see where some less aware than me could really take a nosedive into self pity. The ego loves to run rampant over our spiritual power. Layer after layer, the energy was releasing, the physical body was healing, as it does, because I am connected to the most powerful energy in the Universe (as you are).Each issue that presented itself came out wonderful, each decision was guided and doors opened at the right time. On the spiritual plane it couldn’t have been easier, on the physical plane in spite of feeling rather puny at times. I followed what I knew was my truth, and the instructions I would get on how to take care of myself and the shit cleared. Through it all I kept hearing ‘you’re gonna feel great when you come out on the other side of this.’ I am not sure if it’s all gone but I am feeling rather perky. For whatever else comes my way, I am open for love, joy, peace, prosperity, health and perfect divine self-expression. I will be happy to release anything contrary to that, physical or emotional. Whew, I say that in all gratitude, as I wipe the sweat off my brow!!
The planet itself and the energy of it is also transitioning. It’s showing in our politics, our religions and in financial markets. Nothing can remain the same, the old ego energy is being drawn out to be released and the new energy is taking root in love. Many have requested to be on the planet at this time to be a part of the change. Some came just to make the greatest sacrifice of all, their lives, so an impact could be made. For many of you just trying to make ends meet, get healthy, have a life and raise your kids, it’s a huge challenge. If you are reading this blog you re looking for something more. Welcome to Earth, Spiritual Being!
The most important information I can give you is you are the master of your Universe. The more you ask for wisdom, guidance and understanding the more you open the door for ability to create the life of your dreams. You create that life based on your beliefs. Everything is energy and if you do not like the energy you are living in it’s time to raise your thoughts to knowing who you really are. If you believe life sucks, yes, it will suck and you will forever remain in that sucky life till you change your thoughts. The Universe can only give you what you are willing to receive based on what your truth is. For instance, I know I’m a Goddess, I know I deserve the best, I know I am unlimited.. So I always get guidance and whatever I need shows up, even money, and there is no need to worry, the Universe has got my back. The only difference between me and everyone else who has that sucky life, I KNOW this to be true and the others do not. It’s a journey. I know money is energy because I have been without it many times, I know the Universe has got my back because I have been in the pit of despair….I have lived half my life through the ego, it was sucky and then when I could not take anymore….. I knew I had to change…….so I did and so can you.
For those of you that may be experience something like I did the past year. here is some advice. Focus on love, joy, peace, prosperity, health and perfect divine self expression. A copy of my intention magnet is there memorize the affirmation This will keep you focused on where you want to go, while keeping you in present moment, which is your point of power. Understand the Angels, Universe always says ‘yes’ when you say the affirmation. However, in order to have all that grace in your life you must let go of the negative beliefs you have about yourself. Otherwise your ego will always be interfering in your good and you will never reach that highest level of frequency where your manifestation is immediate and fulfilling. Because you won’t let you get fulfilled……it’s all about you. Funny how that works! The experiences are there for a reason, they are lessons in love, in clarity, in faith, in knowing who you are and what you deserve, no matter how uncomfortable you may feel.
When you are faced with something you do not understand, ask for wisdom guidance, and understanding. Always ask what to do. You will know by your feelings on what decision to make or what direction to go in. Ask you Angels to clear away the fear, so you can see the situation clearly. You will know when there is a yes, it feels good! You will know when it’s a no, an uncomfortable feeling will take over. However, when you ask and you get nothing, do nothing. Sometimes you must not interfere, the Universe is handling things creating synchronicity. You will know what to do when the time is right. Most people will not understand this method of handling life. When you reach this place you are in 4th and 5th dimension energy, someone will need to be very open to understand what this is all about. My husband is in awe of this latest learning experience for me. Whatever info I needed it came to me. I, of course, always share my amazing “synchronicities’ with him, and consequently he can open up to more and more amazing experiences also.
Is it difficult? It can be, if you make it that way. Mostly, you must realize this is your adventure and you are the commander. What you learn, how far you can go, is completely up to you. No one has the power to stop you or has answers for you but you. Every experience, every uncomfortable feeling, every heartache or disappointment, is meant to be a step by step guide to your greatest happiness. The more you learn, the more you pay attention, the more you look within the clearer things will become. When you follow your heart to be open to all the grace available, the whole Universe supports what you do, the whole Universe. Isn’t that amazing?……Yes…..yes….yes, you are!!!
Welcome to Earth!