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I have been on the planet quite a few years now. Half my life I spent in the low frequency ego, meaning, low self esteem, depression, fear, anger, which made my life a constant struggle. I thought that I had to force good to come my way. I was constantly climbing mountains, holding onto life with white knuckles. Nothing was easy and I couldn’t get anything I really wanted, I had to settle. And because I believed it, it was true. That was what my father and mother taught me. It was how they were raised and they died immersed in that low frequency of ego . They were never really happy, my mother was bi-polar and physically abusive, as her parents were to her. My father was sexually abused as a child and did the same to me.
I am happy to say that scenario stopped with me. You see, somewhere along the way I decided there must be more to life than what had been shown to me. I decided to heal. I decided to release the memories that were buried deep inside of me. Not an easy task. You see I had no memories before the age of 10, but I knew there was imbalance and in order to find balance I needed to find myself. It’s not so much that ego had a choke hold on my life, for that is where so many of you reside, but that upon request, the Universe, Angels, Source, God, whatever, responded when I said I’d had enough. I decided to release the memories and the ‘how’ was given to me. I decided I wanted to be healthy, because the depression had made me ill, and the ‘how’ was given to me. I decided not to settle in love, I knew I deserved to be adored and ‘he ‘ crossed my path. (Turns out while I was manifesting him, he was manifesting me, so cool, right!) So instead of letting fear rule my life, I accepted the gifts that were given me. Because this journey, my life, with all the ups and downs and all the ‘aha’ moments taught me……….
I AM GOD
I AM GOD INCARNATE!!
See, it’s really that simple. So the second half of my life is in a very high frequency of love, joy, peace! I am a spiritual being in a physical body, living in a physical world. Shit still happens but why sweat it, the Universe has got my back. Even though I can’t see how something will work out, it always works out. I have found the meaning of life. For some that means meditating constantly or leaving the physical world behind but I decided to plow through it, I never really liked meditating. I would just declare my intention and the answers would come. Sometimes ego would cloud my view and my understanding would take a little longer. But the lesson was to learn to see without ego, which, my friend, is a totally different view.
‘Don’t sweat the small stuff and it’s all small stuff.’ However, this only works if you allow it. This only works if you are really willing to see the truth of who you are, beyond ego and the fake world ego has created. The ego creates a constant battlefield of one personality being right, which, of course, requires you or someone else to be wrong. You see this played out everyday on social media, in politics and religion. Someone or maybe you, needs to be ‘top dog’. You will find in that scenario, as it plays out, maybe, a moment of adrenal excitement, you’re on top, you are right, whao hoo!!!! But in the ego physical world things are precarious and the so called balance changes quickly. Which keeps you in chaos. The ego likes chaos, as long as you are in chaos you won’t have to look within. If you actually look within, you will find who you really are, which is where your real power lies, which would mean ego would not be in control anymore. Now, can you imagine, for just a moment what that would be like. A life full of love, joy, peace, which are the gifts of Spirit. When you reside there, health and prosperity is automatically created, because that is how love, joy, peace, manifests in the physical world. It’s always a choice, which so many of you struggle with. You are in a constant battle with what is, and the ego is in a constant battle to control what is. The peace comes when you quit struggling, by accepting what is with gratitude you open the door for what you want. It’s energy and that’s how energy works and many of you will never get that. No worries you can come back and do it again, the opportunities are endless, as is the Universe.
My book, 8 Keys: A Special Delivery Message from the Angels, tells of my journey and all the ‘hows’! In simple terms, the 8 Keys, believe, trust, detach etc, are the answers to everything, if your ego will allow life to be that simple and easy!!
You are a magnet, what you send out is what you get back. When the ego energies have backed you into a corner, and you finally cry out, ‘there must be more to life than this!’, the ‘how’ to change will be given to you. If you keep your heart open and do not fear the present moment ‘a-ha’s’, you will find your way. Remember, suffering is optional!
“The lesson of life is all about choice. You choose your life, your family, your friends, your difficulties, your opportunities. What you do with them is your choice. Suffer, flourish, succumb or overcome, it’s all up to you. What you need to be grateful for is that it is all your choice. You are not at the mercy of any power. Even the most powerful energy in the Universe insists that you choose to have that power work in your life…..”
8 Keys: A Special Delivery Message from the Angels
I grew up in a very chaotic, dysfunctional family. Dysfunction comes in many forms. Unlike some it wasn’t about drinking, or yelling and screaming between my parents. It was the silence and the unknown. Yes, my mother would lose control and go into a tirade at times, which would strike terror into my heart. But it was the times in between when nothing was said. Each of us is born psychic. That knowing is within us and it is our direct connection to Source. I had that gift. I knew during the times when ‘nothing’ was happening, that something was brewing, the energy of it was palpable. I knew when I would ask ‘what’s wrong’ and got the usual ‘nothing’, that there certainly was something wrong. Especially during the so called ‘happy’ times, the energy of chaos underlying my picturesque family, I knew could blow at any moment. My mother was always on the edge, and my father was distant….Till the visits in the middle of the night. All of this was where I came from. Like so many of you, I learned some excellent, creative, survival mechanisms that truly blossomed as I grew up. I was the ‘good girl’. I got straight A’s in school and made National Junior Honor Society. Not that my family cared, but for me it was a constant battle to prove my worthiness. So the ‘good girl’ became my persona, my survival mode.