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One of my mother’s favorite lines, and your mother may have said the same, “Just because one of your friends jumps off a cliff, are you going to follow them?” Of course not, geez. Back then I may not have understood the message as clearly as I do now. Mom didn’t want me to be a follower. She wanted me to make my own decisions. Even though she was not so good with decisions she made, I know she wanted better for me. It has taken me most of my life to clearly see how those words sank into my brain and my heart. I have made decisions along the way based on never wanting to be like anyone else. I couldn’t see why I couldn’t have what I really wanted. So clearly, I just plowed forward, even if other people didn’t get it or told me I was foolish. Thank you, Mom, I love you so. I also remember her telling me not to be second best to anyone. So I don’t. I do not allow people to have power over me. I follow my own spiritual intuition…….as it is meant to be and we all should.
Throughout history people have been in cults, groups, religious organizations, just so they can feel like they belong to something. I have never understood the need to worship a person, god or organization. Yet so many of you do. In my own teachings there were a few people who just wanted to be ‘following’ me. It gives me, still today, the creeps. I cannot understand idol worship. Yet it happens all the time. Do what you are told and stay within the confines of the belief system. Yuck! Dictators like to be worshiped, politicians like people to think they are special, preachers, doctors, etc…….The worship comes from your idea that the person deserves your worship, because they are better, smarter, more intelligent than you. When you worship that person other people will think you are cool and then they want to be around you. Of course each cult has their rules and regulations, check out those religions! Some of the rules they make up, as they go along. And you as a follower just accept it all. It happens everyday and you just go along. I could make a list of how you are a follower, but if you are in the box, a part of some sheep herd, you will probably not recognize it. Do you think that in the end some of the people of Jonestown, might have been thinking that just maybe following Jim Jones wasn’t such a great idea, but they drank the Kool-Aid anyway.
Each of us is connected to the most powerful energy in the Universe. If you read my blogs you have heard this over and over and over again. Am I getting through yet. Stuff is not just given to me or your doctor or preacher, we are all intuitive. And if your doctor or preacher is spouting out stuff that you must do, how do you know he or she is not in ego. How about that politician, is that person negative or is it about what’s best for everybody? There are some very specific ways to tell if what you are being told or what you are following is right for you. However, you must be willing to open your eyes, you must be willing to see things clearly. If what someone tells you makes you sick to your stomach, if it makes your heart cringe, if the drugs the doctor gives you makes you choke……..you need to pay attention. Is the information about hating someone or empowering you? Are you feeling good about turning your power over to that person or would you rather not go there but you’re too scared to step away? How about decisions you’re making, do you keep hitting a brick wall, is nothing working for you based on what you know? Well I know this for sure, the headache you have is not from the wall but your incessant need to pound your head against it. Because ‘they’ told you this is how it should work and you just keep following along. They are all full of shit, but they keep spouting the same shit and you keep following and ‘ta-da’ they have you in their control. Because if what your doing doesn’t work, it’s most certainly your fault, according to them. They keep you feeling bad about yourself and you are forever a victim. Want some of that Kool-Aid?
The reason you are not taught from the beginning to be empowered is because ‘they’ cannot control an empowered individual. When you are empowered you strip away the need to be punished, you get rid of victimhood, martyrdom, and self sacrifice. You can have anything you want. I mean anything……yeah, that’s what believers say, but when your self awareness says, this is good, I feel free, I am blessed, I have gratitude, you know you’ve got this. The world is a wonderful place. Welcome to Earth, Spiritual Being!!
It doesn’t seem that long ago when I cried out at my corporate office desk, “There must be more to life than this.” I had no idea what being unlimited meant. Even years later as my spiritual journey progressed, I thought I was unlimited, but not so. Because our world, where ego reigns supreme especially in religions, you have no clue what being empowered or unlimited actually means. However, I kept pursuing expecting more from the Universe, health, wealth, happiness, joy. The more I expected the more came my way, the less I struggled, the easier life became. Answers came to me in a simple easy way, no longer complicated by the over controlling ego. The more I let go, the simpler and easier life became. I do not need a doctor,(gave them up over 25 yrs ago) to tell me about my health, I have intuition. When I need money, I just say, ‘send me money’, and money which is just energy shows up!. And each day, gratitude, gratitude, gratitude, this stuff really works…….what you send out is what you get back. I’ve got this now, you should try it. Life was meant to be simple and easy, and you deserve this. You deserve to be you, the person you want to be, the person that is in joy. It’s a lot more fun than sheep ever experience.
I have been on the planet quite a few years now. Half my life I spent in the low frequency ego, meaning, low self esteem, depression, fear, anger, which made my life a constant struggle. I thought that I had to force good to come my way. I was constantly climbing mountains, holding onto life with white knuckles. Nothing was easy and I couldn’t get anything I really wanted, I had to settle. And because I believed it, it was true. That was what my father and mother taught me. It was how they were raised and they died immersed in that low frequency of ego . They were never really happy, my mother was bi-polar and physically abusive, as her parents were to her. My father was sexually abused as a child and did the same to me.
I am happy to say that scenario stopped with me. You see, somewhere along the way I decided there must be more to life than what had been shown to me. I decided to heal. I decided to release the memories that were buried deep inside of me. Not an easy task. You see I had no memories before the age of 10, but I knew there was imbalance and in order to find balance I needed to find myself. It’s not so much that ego had a choke hold on my life, for that is where so many of you reside, but that upon request, the Universe, Angels, Source, God, whatever, responded when I said I’d had enough. I decided to release the memories and the ‘how’ was given to me. I decided I wanted to be healthy, because the depression had made me ill, and the ‘how’ was given to me. I decided not to settle in love, I knew I deserved to be adored and ‘he ‘ crossed my path. (Turns out while I was manifesting him, he was manifesting me, so cool, right!) So instead of letting fear rule my life, I accepted the gifts that were given me. Because this journey, my life, with all the ups and downs and all the ‘aha’ moments taught me……….
I AM GOD
I AM GOD INCARNATE!!
See, it’s really that simple. So the second half of my life is in a very high frequency of love, joy, peace! I am a spiritual being in a physical body, living in a physical world. Shit still happens but why sweat it, the Universe has got my back. Even though I can’t see how something will work out, it always works out. I have found the meaning of life. For some that means meditating constantly or leaving the physical world behind but I decided to plow through it, I never really liked meditating. I would just declare my intention and the answers would come. Sometimes ego would cloud my view and my understanding would take a little longer. But the lesson was to learn to see without ego, which, my friend, is a totally different view.
‘Don’t sweat the small stuff and it’s all small stuff.’ However, this only works if you allow it. This only works if you are really willing to see the truth of who you are, beyond ego and the fake world ego has created. The ego creates a constant battlefield of one personality being right, which, of course, requires you or someone else to be wrong. You see this played out everyday on social media, in politics and religion. Someone or maybe you, needs to be ‘top dog’. You will find in that scenario, as it plays out, maybe, a moment of adrenal excitement, you’re on top, you are right, whao hoo!!!! But in the ego physical world things are precarious and the so called balance changes quickly. Which keeps you in chaos. The ego likes chaos, as long as you are in chaos you won’t have to look within. If you actually look within, you will find who you really are, which is where your real power lies, which would mean ego would not be in control anymore. Now, can you imagine, for just a moment what that would be like. A life full of love, joy, peace, which are the gifts of Spirit. When you reside there, health and prosperity is automatically created, because that is how love, joy, peace, manifests in the physical world. It’s always a choice, which so many of you struggle with. You are in a constant battle with what is, and the ego is in a constant battle to control what is. The peace comes when you quit struggling, by accepting what is with gratitude you open the door for what you want. It’s energy and that’s how energy works and many of you will never get that. No worries you can come back and do it again, the opportunities are endless, as is the Universe.
My book, 8 Keys: A Special Delivery Message from the Angels, tells of my journey and all the ‘hows’! In simple terms, the 8 Keys, believe, trust, detach etc, are the answers to everything, if your ego will allow life to be that simple and easy!!
You are a magnet, what you send out is what you get back. When the ego energies have backed you into a corner, and you finally cry out, ‘there must be more to life than this!’, the ‘how’ to change will be given to you. If you keep your heart open and do not fear the present moment ‘a-ha’s’, you will find your way. Remember, suffering is optional!