A Vision of Freedom, Finding Who You Really Are!
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When I was a little girl, I learned early on not to make waves. My mother was bipolar and easily sent over the edge (remember the meds then were very different than what we have now). She did not want another child, my sister and I were 11 months apart. Her response to that was to leave me in my crib for long periods of time, crying and longing to be held ( this info from my sister and father). As time went on she accepted me, but being manic depressive, it was a crap shoot on what would set her off. So I, as a very creative small child, was meek and tried my best to be invisible.I became the good girl, did as I was told and would hide when she would loose control. Of course, it didn’t always work and that’s when the beatings would occur. Something would set her off, then she would loose control and get physical, then suddenly she would stop, walk away and start crying. Being the good girl, I would comfort her. My father was very distant, till bed time and then make his way to my bed or my sister’s. Much of this I had blocked from my memory, because it was the best way to survive. An interesting way to start my life and of course I signed on for this before I came to the planet. As we all do by setting up a foundation to our lives with people who must play their role so we can learn, grow, and overcome.
I took the energy of being a ‘good girl’ into my adulthood, trying to be perfect and do everything right. In school I was all A’s, studying, working hard to please the people who were in charge, the adults, the teachers, the imperfect parents. Neither of my parents felt good about themselves, ironically, always trying to please their parents. With amazing hard work, I made the ‘National Junior Honor Society’, which wasn’t the place for my ‘class’ of people, I thought I had arrived. A huge ceremony was performed in front of all the school and of course, parents were invited. I was the only one without parents being there. Again, separate, and invisible.
This is part of the story of my life, rather sad when I think of it; and sometimes hard to believe it happened. There is more of course, which can be read in my book “8 Keys; A Special Delivery Message from the Angels”. Both my parents have passed, never, ever finding true happiness. That fact made a huge impact on me. My mother died at 57 taking care of her mother hoping she would hear the words “I love you”, she never did. My father died with his 3rd partner, never forgiving his mother for molesting him or asking forgiveness for the sexual abuse he did to us.
The reason I share this with you is because the interactions in our childhood shapes the adults we become. No one is born fearful, anxious, with low self esteem, hating others. We are taught that by people who are supposed to know what they are doing, our adult parents and grandparents. As you look around the world today, prejudice, judgement, fear are rampant and this negativity is learned. I learned that I needed to constantly prove I was worthy, even though I left home at 18, positively giddy, to finally be on my own and responsible for myself. However, you can run but you can’t hide. No matter how busy you are or how far you run…… eventually you meet yourself when the dust settles.
The energy of 2015 is all about finding yourself, figuring out who you really are and being in integrity with you!! The energy which seems oppressive to so many, and maybe you, is putting in front of your face exactly what you need to deal with. Issues of your value, fear of not being good enough, fear of lack of money, anger, forgiveness, illnesses, all a part of your resistance to looking inward and resolving the issues that bring up so much negative emotions. This is not about punishment, as so many religions would have you to believe…..it’s about energy, frequency, which is higher now than almost anytime on earth. This high frequency is pushing against you, because you are carrying a low frequency of negativity. The energy is making you feel uncomfortable, depressed, sad, anxious. We try to suppress these emotions with drugs, alcohol, obsessive behavior, illnesses (yes, we create illness to escape)…… trust me, been there, done that, bought the t-shirt, it doesn’t work. It’s time for a new direction because your misery does not go away!!!
When our ego feels out of control, it tries to control more. You all know people like that. They are always needing things done their way (maybe you?) trying to move heaven and earth to get things done the way they see fit. It’s exhausting watching the struggle and the stressful emotions involved. These people are literally going against the flow of how things should happen, but because of how they feel about themselves, it is a constant struggle to prove their worth, to fix things. If this is you….you can stop now, you are not worthy because of what you do or how much money you make or because you go to church…..You, my friend, are worthy because you have chosen to make the journey, not because of what you think you have accomplished, it’s all about showing up! Welcome to Earth. You have nothing that needs to be proven, you are divine. All the other stuff is a set-up you created to come to Earth to learn, love of others and self, forgiveness, peace, happiness. It’s all a part of the journey. Every time someone gets a ‘aha’ moment, the Angels rejoice. Let this be your ‘Aha’ moment, just say yes, to peace, joy, love………….
First, Believe, there is a higher power, an energy that is powerful and flows through you……
Second Trust, that this higher power has got your back and is benevolent…….
Third Detach on how the Universe will work things out…………
Fourth, Love yourself and extend that love to others…………..
Those are the first 4 keys to the 8 Keys:A Special Delivery Message to the Angels. The 8 Keys are the answer to everything. It’s all about simple and easy, which your ego will struggle against. Your ego will keep you doubting and spinning in circles. If my book doesn’t entice you, just ask for guidance, wisdom and understanding from your Angels, you’ll be led!! It really is that simple, focus on what you want, not what you don’t want. When a negative emotion pops up, which will happen often, remember it is your ego, which prefers you in victim mode. So what do you prefer, peace joy, and abundance or being a victim and blaming others? It is your choice. Nothing that has been on your journey, is by chance or luck. Take what has happened to you and learn from it. Understand you are a Divine Being, having a physical experience. You can either let those seemingly ‘negative’ experiences make you a better person, or shrivel up and be an angry, nasty, prejudiced, individual……..
What awaits you is love, joy, peace, prosperity, health, perfect self expression……As for me, I’ve got all that and more. I am empowered, I have forgiven, everything I ask for and manifest I get, my life is filled with love, the more I let go the more I receive. Everything is simple and easy, because if it isn’t I don’t do it. If I hit a brick wall, I back away. If it’s not fun, forget it! I am healthy, young (60 yrs) and grateful for a life so wonderful I could have never imagined it was possible……I look forward to my future because it just gets better and better……..
What about you Human, what are you going to do with all your experiences? Hmmmmm…….
Welcome to Earth!!!