You are spending more time focused upon its absence, then you  are about its presence.”      ~~Abraham Hicks

I have written and shared many times about how I lived over half my life in fear. Everyday, 24/ 7, fear was my guide. Even if things were going good, I was afraid of what might happen. There was always something to be afraid of, and it didn’t have to be real. I was raised in a household full of fear, my mother was bi-polar and my father was a sexual abuser, fear was the energy in my home. Even when I went to church, which you think would give me a positive example, I always had fear I would sin and not be good enough. I was afraid I would disappoint god, just because I existed, and the church did nothing to dispel that. I get it now, fear is ego. Ego sees the world through physical eyes and just looks for things that may happen to hurt you. My tortured soul just wanted to be free, but so many things could hurt me.

Everything is energy, so because I believed my fear was real, it was real…..that is energy and what you send out is what you get back. To get out of fear and change my life I had to change my whole belief system. All the teachings of my childhood had to be removed and replaced by thoughts that could create a knowing of life being filled with love, joy, peace……That was a very daunting task. It was not easy, it was not simple, because ego did not want to let go of control, and it was definitely not comfortable. But like so many of you, I’m compulsive/obsessive, and didn’t give up. I made up my mind to change things. There was Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, and my fav, John Randolph Price (certainly many more), they all said I could do it and be happy and healthy. So, I took my journey and it became a book, and to this day, I am in awe of the Energy and how much power we Humans have.

You live in a time that is all about energy. Wayne Dyer said, “You are what you think about all day long.” Your focus of your energy creates your life, happy or sad, angry of forgiving, love or hate…..whatever you know to be true, is true and that can make a great life or one that sucks. Don’t take my word for it, any self-help book will tell you the same thing. The funny thing is you look to others to make your bad stuff disappear. For awhile that may work but in the end you still keep creating the same shit based on your belief that life sucks and someone else can fix you, silly ego driven human. Your physical world is a screen shot of your thoughts at this moment. I see you out there on Facebook, the negativity is rampant. You waste your energy on others that have nothing to do with you, so you can be offended and hate someone. No wonder your life sucks.

I have written many times about this, trying to teach you about ego and energy. So with that said, I changed my life. I know my life is all about  love, joy, peace, which are the gifts of Spirit and does not include fear. Yes, I replaced the darkness in my life with Light and Love. That energy in its physical manifestation brings into my life, health, prosperity and perfect divine self expression. If you decide to give up on fear and live your life the way you were meant to, change your thoughts, be grateful everyday. The whole Universe supports what you do when you decide to be the Spiritual Being you were meant to be, you will have support. You will find a teacher, needs will be met and lessons will certainly come your way. If you need help, just ask, ‘help’, help is always around you. Of course you will have to pay attention to all those uncomfortable lessons. Whatever makes you feel like uncomfortable, is not about what someone else is doing whatever they do, it is about you. So be sure and ask for clarity on why the heck some stupid thing bothers you so much. Get to know yourself, I’m sure you will find yourself fascinating.

Welcome to Earth, Spiritual being.